Sometimes I find myself looking at photos like this one:
We've had some books from the library recently about Chinese adoption. They have been great children's stories and some share the perspective of the siblings waiting at home and others tell it from the adopted child's perspective. Reading these books has been a great thing for us and has generated a lot of good conversation with the kids, Grace especially. She keeps saying she wants to hold her baby sister, but of course, she will likely be too big for Grace to hold. So we've told her how sweet that is and how wonderful it will be to cuddle, but perhaps she may not be able to hold her like she would a baby. One morning at breakfast, Grace sweetly declared, "I can't hold her, but maybe I can hold her hand?" Yes! Yes! You can hold her hand through many parts of her life! Please, hold her hand!
For now we are just left with lots of wondering. Will she be subdued? Will she be introverted or extroverted? Will she be wild and dramatic or quiet and reserved? Where will she be in the photos? Who will she want to be closest to? For now, we just look at our photos and wonder. Sometimes I dream of who she will be.